Co-Sleeping...now you know why I am tired

Yep, you guessed it. I am one of those people. One of those people whose children have never slept in a crib, with the except of a nap or two between all 3 of them. In the beginning it was for safety and convenience. Knowing that they are safe and nearby was reassuring. For convenience because I nursed all my boys and it was nice to not even really have to wake up for too long to nurse at night, let alone not having to get up, turn on a light, and the like. So I am a very tired person, in general, because I have never slept without a little one nearby. I do absolutely love it... I love looking over and watching them sleep, I love hearing them take their little breaths, I love having them right there with us. What I don't love however, is the lack of sleep, I have turned into a super light sleeper. I wake at almost any movement and noise.

Just two nights ago as I laid on the very corner-edge of a king sized bed, I was thinking how ridiculous it was that I was occupying only 5% of the entire bed...meanwhile Samuel was smack dab in the middle with arms and legs stretched out to their fullest potential.

One compromise we did make with the other 2 - we will lay with them until they fall asleep. OK OK so I know we aren't necessarily doing things by the book, but hey - they are only young once. I guess I have just succumb to the fact that I will always be tired at least until my kids have grown. Then I can stay up all night worrying about where they are and what they are doing. :O)

I Love You Five Hundred!

Something my two oldest boys have been saying lately makes me bust a huge smile every time! They think that attaching a huge number to things they say really demonstrates how strongly they feel. So when it comes time to saying goodnight, they have been saying:

Preston the 6yr old: "I love you sixty billion, five hundred, eight-five" (any large random string of numbers) OR "I love you higher than any number God can count"

Oliver simply says: "I love you five hundred"

I love it, love it! Makes me feel happy and loved.

I remember when I was young when I tried to show my Mom how much I loved her I would open my arms up as wide as they would stretch and tell her that's how much I love her. Still do... but don't express it so much anymore. Next time I see her, I will prepare my arms to open up wide, wonder if she remembers.

Tired = Grouchy

Is this the case for you too? I don't mean to be an ogre when I am suffering from lack of sleep, but everything irritates me. I am even totally conscious of the grouchiness but I still can't snap myself out of it. YUCK!

Ok, so nobody with kids ever told me that you basically go through life exhausted. I never knew all my acquaintances with children were living these "secret night lives". At night, in our house, there is always 1 kid waking up for whatever reason. Once we get that child back to sleep, we doze off just in time for the next child to wake us. Boom we are snapped out of that nice, syrupy, drowsy sleep, only to have to go and take care of whatever is they need (water, bathroom, Me). Then we doze off again, what will it be next? Another child? Alarm clock? Loud neighbors?

I am just so tired! I will probably read this post later and remember that I was in a seriously grouchy fog. Enough rambling. I am alone for the next 30 minutes, night night (yes it is 8:41AM) !

And Now... A Moment for My Dear Husband

Honey,
I love you! I love you. I loved you from about the 2nd day I knew you! It was 10 years ago that I walked into my new job and found that I had been seated right next to a quiet guy with beautiful eyes and a love for the Broncos. What an adventure we have been on. Endless conversations at Starbucks, the Marriott, Shelbys! I treasured every moment with you. I would pray to God that he would make you my husband! I hung on your every word.

I didn't know God would answer my prayer, not only did he answer that prayer he even threw in 3 great boys! Who would have thought?

Now... what an amazing partner you have turned out to be. You are our provider, caregiver, everything, teacher, meal maker, playground pal, laudry-do-er, dishwasher - you take such wonderful care of us.

Thank you Honey! Thank you thank you. I can't wait to see what the next 10 years has in store for us! Loving you always, Your HoneyBun